Update to my Polycount June noob challenge.  It’s been slow going since I have had to move out of my old apartment.  Picking up the pace again though!  All models in the ceiling are done.  I’m moving onto all the wiring next, then creating high res models for everything that needs it including the objects that reside in the shelves and on the desk.  From there I will finally be moving the scene into Unreal 4. Lots of UVing, modeling, and detail passes to go before texturing.  Getting close though!  

Update to my Polycount June noob challenge.  It’s been slow going since I have had to move out of my old apartment.  Picking up the pace again though!  All models in the ceiling are done.  I’m moving onto all the wiring next, then creating high res models for everything that needs it including the objects that reside in the shelves and on the desk.  From there I will finally be moving the scene into Unreal 4. Lots of UVing, modeling, and detail passes to go before texturing.  Getting close though!  

Some WIPs I have in progress.  Top one is the noob challenge for June on polycount, the middle one is a piano that I plan on putting in a New York Jazz club environment I am building, and the bottom one is my WIP on Ender’s quarters from the movie Ender’s Game.

A revelation and the pursuit of happiness.

As I sit here this morning at my job I began to explore my mind to find out what truly makes me unhappy and why.  I found myself dictating my whole routine in hopes to examine myself as an outsider attempting to look in.  What I found was honestly a bit depressing.  I lead a very inactive lifestyle and by that I am not referring to exercise alone.  I lost touch with what I believe to be my own humanity.  I’ve always had a very fierce passion for life and I view it as the greatest gift I’ve ever received. I look at what it has to offer but more times than not I find myself playing the proverbial “waiting game.”  My view on life is that it must be put on hold until I am wildly rich and able to go wherever I want and do whatever I want, and what I want to do is experience different cultures and help people on a personal level, not just by throwing money or resources at them.  

I like the idea of living an altruistic life but at the same time I know that everyone does need to make some time for themselves as well.  Reflecting on yourself and your actions is instrumental in making others happy, but if you yourself are not happy then there is no way you can ever make others happy.  

We live in such a fast paced environment now.  It’s changing and some of it is changing for the good but some of it is changing for the bad.  We need to reintegrate the social aspect of social media.  Everyday we are all so involved with our phones, computers, game systems, and television that we never have time to examine who we are.  I ask you, when is the last time you just sat in a place and just freed your mind to the vast possibilities your life holds?  When is the last time you were able to just sit and reflect on yourself and how your actions may affect other peoples lives?  In this day in age it is far too easy to just simply write a person off.  We all still have emotions and we feel it when someone decides you are not good enough for them on a social level anymore.  Our lives are interconnected at the blink of an eye and that is taken for granted.  The power we all hold to reach millions with our words and actions is quite staggering.  That power has taken the interaction portion out of the equation.  This is ever so present in my life.  Most of my friends live all over the world due to our chosen career.  I find that I can say whatever I feel on the internet but when it comes to real life human interaction I find myself being shy and stammering my words as I speak.  How is speaking in real life any different than speaking on the internet?  We are still getting through to people so why is it becoming more and more awkward to be around other people physically?  

I want to start changing my life today.  I want to physically and mentally see the meaning of life manifested by my own actions from now on.  It will be hard and I know I will fail along the way but hey, I’m still a human right?  :)

The Hunger Games: A look back into our own eyes.


Let me start by saying that this movie is fantastic.  I am reading some reviews that mention that this is ‘unrealistic’ and is a terrible depiction of a dystopian future.  The word dystopia is defined as a community or society that is in some important way undesirable or frightening.  The opposite of utopia.  I think by definition alone this movie depicts the EXACT meaning of a dystopian future.  

    The minds of the people running the capitol are so gone and warped that they deem these games entertainment.  They don’t know any better.  Since this is the 74h games, everyone partaking and controlling the games are grandchildren and great grandchildren of it’s creators.  They have been detached and do not know the true meaning of the hunger games, they lack the honor that used to go into them.  Is that any different than what is going on today in our own society?  Our world is controlled by kids who inherited money, corporations, power, etc.  They’ve never had to work for it a day in their lives, they grew up in an environment that was a total utopia and they don’t understand the meaning of having to work hard and make sacrifices to survive.  They’ve always had it all.  Yes, kids kill each other in this movie, and sometimes it is truly brutal and quite disheartening.  Every “tribute” in this movie knows how these games work, and what it means to be a part of them.  I read reviews stating that in a real world, these individuals would have bound together to fight back against the fascists forcing them to partake.  That is simply not true.  The Hunger Games, being the 74th annual games at this point, have already been designed and carried out with precision 73 times prior.  These kids knew what they were in for so survival of the fittest was the only option.  Some of them did ally together but in the end it was always going to be the last person standing.

    That is what The Hunger Games is all about.  The movie shows a far off version of this already dystopian society that we live in today, it’s a hyperdriven version.  This movie is about the compassion and respect we all lack in our day to day lives.  A scene that can truly depict this is when Katniss is hunting the deer, she says, ‘I haven’t seen a deer in over a year.’  This means that even deer at this point have become so scarce that they’re almost impossible to find.  The worst part is, she tries to kill it anyways.  What does that mean?  It means even she has a mind that has been altered into thinking that the destruction of the world around us is ok.  It is not until she is chosen for the games that her feelings begin to change.  The first sign of this is when she finds herself appreciating a butterfly as it lands on her finger and slowly flutters away, for the first time, Katniss have discovered beauty in something most of us would perceive as meaningless.

    Our society has such a huge percentage of people that are simply looking out for number one, themselves.  That isn’t always a bad thing but if we lived in a world where we all would perform two or three good deeds throughout the day our predicaments would improve vastly.  Katniss is a symbol of hope, a glimmer of the love that so many of us desire today.  In the end she has become, even if only for a moment, totally selfless in her pursuit of survival.  She was prepared to die to make a difference in the way people in that world think.  In the final moments of the games, her act did just that.  Her and Peta were both spared after being lied to after all.  Katniss unknowingly succeeded in altering the minds of the brainwashed controlling the show.  She made a real difference and I think that is what matters the most.  Let the rebellion begin!

    Some people may think I am crazy but I really enjoyed this film.   I wasn’t so crazy about the whole Wizard of Oz type wardrobe but honestly, my perceived meaning of the first in the three part series was far more important.  It made me really think about things in a different way.  It allowed me to analyze myself and it brings me closer to the answers I seek in life, the most important being; Who am I?

The Green Hornet

After hearing Seth Rogen’s opening statement for Alzheimer’s research tonight I decided I wanted to watch one of his movies.  I ended up landing on The Green Hornet.  I’m not really sure why everyone hates so hard on it.  I enjoyed it.  I was reading the complaints about it and one thing I kept coming across was the fact that there was no real romance in the movie.  Why does that even matter?  Do superhero movies require romance as well?  Not really.  I don’t have any prior knowledge of The Green Hornet, I never knew what it was until this movie was released.  My like of this film may be due in part of that fact.  I loved the action in the film and the plot was interesting to me.  The fact that The Green Hornet wants to be looked at like a total criminal when in reality he and his sidekick are heroes is such a new and awesome take on a superhero in my opinion.  This movie was missing everything that comes with a standard comic to movie/superhero flick, and that’s what makes it brilliant.  
    You keep expecting Britt to start training and become a fighting master like his counterpart but it never comes, you also expect him to completely change his demeanor and eventually get the girl but that fails to happen as well.  It held up well in it’s grittiness to me.  It was everything a superhero movie isn’t and that is so kick ass.  So what if the building of the cars and the tech used isn’t ‘realistic’ to people’s standards.  After all, it is a movie!  Use your imaginations!  
    My only complaint is that I didn’t get to know the characters enough, I feel that way about a lot of movies I watch though.  I always want more back story with more intimate connections with people, it makes things more personal while watching.  

All in all though I actually really liked that movie and it’s a shame we won’t be seeing a sequel due to the sheer volume of hate surrounding the movie.  I would be all in for a sequel, on the bright side, they could always get a new director if they ever decided to go for it!